Daddy's Day

Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Kebelakangan ini kerja di pejabat kembali menimbun. Stress tu dah macam perkara biasa. Alhamdulillah aku masih mampu bertahan. Bila stress aku suka cari motivational quotes untuk aku pulihkan semangat bekerja. Terkesan pula hati ini bila membaca nukilan ini. Walau kisah kami tak serupa tapi aku rindu pada lelaki bergelar ayah yang telah pergi dari hidupku 17 tahun nan lalu. Perkenalan kami cukup singkat. Cuma 15 tahun Tuhan pinjamkan aku untuk merasai kehidupan penuh bahagia bersama Babah. Baru semalam aku bermimpi tentang Babah. Sudah lama dia tidak hadir dalam mimpiku. Babah, insyaAllah diri ini tak kan pernah lupa menitipkan doa buatmu. Dan sajak ini benar-benar menyentuh jiwaku. Air mata penuh rindu mengalir tak dipinta. 

Her hair was up in a ponytail 
Her favorite dress tied with a bow 
Today was Daddy's Day at school 
And she couldn't wait to go. 
But her mommy tried to tell her, 
That she probably should stay home. 
Why the kids might not understand, 
If she went to school alone. 

But she was not afraid; 
She knew just what to say. 
What to tell her classmates 
Of why he wasn't there today. 
But still her mother worried, 
For her to face this day alone. 
And that was why once again, 
She tried to keep her daughter home. 
But the little girl went to school, 
Eager to tell them all. 

About a dad she never sees, 
A dad who never calls. 
There were daddies along the wall in back, 
For everyone to meet 
Children squirming impatently, 
Anxious in their seats. 
One by one the teacher called, 
Each student from the class. 
To introduce their daddy, 
As seconds slowly passed. 

At last the teacher called her name, 
Every child turned to stare. 
Each of them was searching, 
For a man who wasn't there. 

"Where's her daddy at?" 
She heard a boy call out. 
"She probably doesn't have one" 
Another student dared to shout. 
And from somewhere near the back, 
She heard a daddy say, 
"Looks like another deadbeat dad, 
Too busy to waste his day." 
The words did not offened her, 
As she smiled up at her mom. 
And looked back at her teacher, 
Who told her to go on. 

And with hands behind her back, 
Slowly she began to speak. 
And out from the mouth of a child, 
Came words incredibly unique. 
"My daddy couldn't be here, 
Because he lives so far away. 
But I know he wishes he could be, 
Since this is such a special day. 
And though you cannot meet him, 
I wanted you to know. 

All about my daddy, 
And how much he loves me so. 
He loved to tell me stories 
He taught me to ride my bike. 
He surprised me with pink roses, 
And taught me to fly a kite. 
We used to share fudge sundaes, 
and ice cream in a cone. 

And though you cannot see him, 
I'm not standing here alone. 
Cause my daddy's always with me 
Even though we are apart. 
I know because he told me, 
He'll forever be in my heart." 

With that, her little hand reached up, 
and lay across her chest. 
Feeling her own heartbeat, 
Beneath her favorite dress. 

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, 
Her mother stood in tears. 
Proudly watching her daughter, 
Who was wise beyond her years. 
For she stood up for the love 
Of a man not in her life. 
Doing what was best for her, 
Doing what was right. 

And when she dropped her hand back down, 
Staring straight into the crowd. 
She finished with a voice so soft, 
But its message clear and loud. 
"I love my daddy very much, 
He's my shining star. 
And if he could he'd be here, 
But heaven's just too far. 
You see he was a fireman 
And died just this past year. 
When airplanes hit the towers 
And taught Americans to fear. 

But sometimes when I close my eyes, 
It's like he never went away." 
And then she closes her eyes, 
And saw him there that day. 
And to her mother's amazement, 
She witnessed with surprise. 
A room full of daddies and children, 
All starting to close their eyes. 

Who knows what they say before them, 
Who knows what they felt inside. 
Perhaps for merely a second, 
They saw him at her side. 
"I know you're with me Daddy." 
To the silence she called out. 

And what happened next made believers, 
Of those once filled with doubt. 
Not one in that room could explain it, 
For each of their eyes had been closed. 
But there on the desk beside her, 
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. 
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, 
By the love of her shining bright star. 
And given the gift of believing, 
That heaven is never too far 

- From the poem Daddy's Day, by Cheryl Costello-Forshey (